I wish I could give people and idea of what it’s like to have OCD, all the things I worry about & why - why they matter individually. Here’s one, one of my biggest obsessions and worries has to be worrying about the future, worrying about how well off I’ll be. It’s a scary thing, because we all want our life stories to go as we plan, and when something happens you have no control over, its tough.
I’m battered and bruised mentally and I don’t like the way the Benzo’s I’m getting off of have made me feel. I can hardly eat, and sleep and my mind is off on tangents of obsessions, but I’m trying my hardest to deal with it.